Ever feel so alone while surrounded by so many people? That’s me right now.

Anxiety is different with everyone. For me, I never see it coming. It sneaks up on me when I least expect it. I’ve had it for years and I can say I definitely manage it better than I use to, but that doesn’t make it any easier every time I have an anxiety attack.

One minute I think I have my life together. One minute I feel like I have goals. I can feel like I am on top of the world. Then suddenly I feel like there’s nothing I got going for me. Like no one is standing beside me.

I am still learning about my anxiety everyday. I don’t think anyone has their anxiety fully figured out for that matter. But one thing I learned about my anxiety is LOCATION. Location plays a major role in my anxiety. I couldn’t tell you why, but let me explain how I know.

Some places make me very uncomfortable, for reasons I don’t know. One of the first places I learned that gives me anxiety are big cities. I’m not sure if it has anything to do with the fact that I grew in the literal woods {what up Poconos!}. I couldn’t tell you if it’s large crowds of people, big buildings, or just a lot going on in general, but heck I can’t do New York City. I remember my first anxiety attack in NY. It’s hard to explain what was happening on the inside, but on the outside I was very frozen and mute. I couldn’t talk to anyone or even do anything. It was such a weird but terrifying moment.

I could go on and on, but I’ll save you the depressing details. My intentions of this post weren’t to talk about how anxiety sucks, even if it really does at times. I’m writing to say YOU are not alone. I am not alone. WE are all not alone. Anxiety may be a part of our lives, but it sure as heck doesn’t define us.

For a good year I was letting it run my life. I wasn’t leaving the house. I wasn’t seeing friends. I didn’t even know what the sun was anymore.

Typing this feels so weird because if you ask anyone who knows me, they’d say I am the most positive and happy go lucky person they ever met. This is true for the most part and I think part of that really helps me with my anxiety.

I know. My thoughts are all over the place and this post has no real order to it, but that’s anxiety.

I will stop rambling now but let me leave you with some quotes and tips & tricks…

“Your mind is your prison when you focus on your fear.”
“Stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness.”


Tips & Tricks (that work for me)

  • Take a time-out to just breathe
  • Eat healthier meals. …
  • Limit caffeine(can aggravate anxiety and trigger panic attacks)
  • Get enough sleep (but don’t overdo it and sleep all day)
  • Exercise daily
  • Surround yourself with positive people
  • Set goals or things to look forward to
  • Listen to your favorite music playlist


Tips & Tricks for anxiety attacks (that work for me)

  • Focus on your breathing
  • Call a friend and talk
  • Pick up a book and read the first paragraph
  • Hold onto something comforting
  • Count 10 things around you that you can see, touch, smell, etc
  • Take a shower


Panic Disorder Information Hotline: 1-800-64-PANIC (72642)

National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) Helpline: 1-800-950-NAMI (6264)

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

Teen Line: 1-310-855-HOPE (4673) or 1-800-TLC-TEEN (852-8336)


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